They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going alongwith the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things aboutyourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feelinginsecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then getscared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, thosefriends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly thegreatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touchwith are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize isthat they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty ormean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you wouldbe doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that youare going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with thesame people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe theyweren't so great after all. You are beginning to understand yourselfand what you want and do not want.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing andfind yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realizethat you have certain boundaries in your life and add things toyour list of what is acceptable and what is not.
You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatestforce of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenlychange is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear lifebut soon realize that the past is drifting further and further awayand there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do suchdamage to you or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyonedecent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe lovesomeone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talkwith your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to makea decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life foryourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd justlike to be a contender!