Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Quarter-Life Crisis????!!!!! wtf!!!

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going alongwith the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things aboutyourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feelinginsecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then getscared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, thosefriends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly thegreatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touchwith are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize isthat they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty ormean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you wouldbe doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that youare going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with thesame people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe theyweren't so great after all. You are beginning to understand yourselfand what you want and do not want.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing andfind yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realizethat you have certain boundaries in your life and add things toyour list of what is acceptable and what is not.
You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatestforce of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenlychange is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear lifebut soon realize that the past is drifting further and further awayand there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do suchdamage to you or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyonedecent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe lovesomeone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talkwith your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to makea decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life foryourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd justlike to be a contender!

2 comments:

  1. Jeff,
    You are a beautiful person inside and out and the best thing about life, is that you are on an awesome journey. The key is realizing that you are supposed to be where you are in your life, because that is where God has placed you. Remember he will not put you through any more than you can handle. It is all about relying on our savior and not falling through the cracks of what is popular or secular. Those choices don't matter, because you have to store your riches up in heaven. You are here to do the Lords work, so let him in so he can show you the way. After all the things that you go through will be no worse than seeing your son hang on a cross to die for the ones that don't have to die because of their sins.
    Be thankful for waking up every morning, being able to eat, breathe, sleep, walk, talk ect...Most things that some people in this world can not do.

    Love is patient, love is kind, love will conqour all things!

    I suggest that you listen to the song "Working Man' by newworldson and be a special angent for the lamb! :-)... Phil 4:13" Through Christ all things are possible"!
    In christ!!!!
    Jayme

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  2. Thanks Jayme, I will listen to the song. Oh yeah we can do all things through Christ! Amen

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