Monday, June 30, 2008

Sugar pop- PAraiso

la lang.. ang mga batang ito nag mana sakin :-P

Saturday, June 28, 2008

What if....

What if...

.. I didn't resigned in Dell? Would I be more happy and fulfiled?
.. I just wen't directly to SG to find a job?
.. I stayed with my team to hadle them?
.. I didn't let you go?
.. I strive harder during college?
.. I let Mama Ester have her Chemo?
.. I have more than enough money not to work?

Should all the answer be better than what had happened? *Sigh*

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

The past weekend counting days I wanna go home

I haven't shared this yet. I went to Ashville North Carolina to visit the Biltmore Estate with two of my friends apparently I haven't realized that I'll be paying crappy $51 for the entrance fee which frustrates me because my savings got cut off again however to be fair to the kindness of my friends I just stay cool and enjoy the day which happens to be not bad at all. I was amazed by the baltimore mansion it was literally huge, i think I've seen the mansion on several movies like ever after and Richy rich i never imagined I would be seeing it one day.

It was a beautiful day to spend weekend. Gota lots of pictures which tested my modeling skill..ahahaha! here's one sample

The next day Kat flew back home. Early this morning, Stell paid me the big bucks with one box of coins placed in sinusitis med box, that was just sweet of her...Now I got lots of coins to dispose on the next days...I'm planning to eat at chillys and put the coins on the sinus med box and pay my meal.. I pray that the crew will not give me a face upon paying my bill because I did not make a face when I received them...

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Email of the day

I'm not usually fan of reading email stuff but this email caught my attention and made my day..I learned something important.. Let me share it to you guys, I so hope you do the same...

You might have read this before but it’s something that’s really worth remembering and
living by… Enjoy life’s little treasuresJ

The Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars and you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labours and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Katherine Esguerra Test Engineer, Asset Optimization
Emerson Process Management 835 Innovation Dr. Knoxville TN 37932 USA
T + 1 800 675 4726 F +1 685 218 1411

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Song's for Mama Ester

In Memory of my Mama Ester. This blog of mine was Created Sept 25, 2006. I would like to keep it so I'm putting it here

Each year, 182,000 women are diagnosed with breast cancer and 43,300 die. One woman in eight either has or will develop breast cancer in her lifetime. In addition, 1,600 men will be diagnosed with breast cancer and 400 will die this year.
liquid crystal about to overflow from the side of my eyes when she let me see the swollen breast on her right and say "konti lang naman yung sugat, anak" My voice was shaking trying not to let her feel my true emotions. But at the back of my mind I know for a fact that it was not just a simple tumor because it was black all over the sides of the breast, it was like rotten tumor outside. There was silence for a couple of minutes and I just ask her if it was painful although I know already the answer, she just said "minsan". I was amazed by her strength and determination, because she can still manage to laugh,cook for me when at home and walk around every morning. What kills me more is my incapability to do more than I could do to help her ease the pain.
After our short conversation, I went online to check for Breast cancer article and read more stuff about it. It crashes my heart when I saw the picture of the actual breast cancer patient and compare it to her... All fears flashes on my consciousness, Hot liquid crystals begin to flow through my cheeks... I went back to her pretending nothing happens. I ask her what does the doctor said about the thing, she said that the doctor informed her that it's stage 4 breast cancer. My heart beats faster but still, I manage to pretend to be OK. I just said God can do miracles and she agreed. She is indeed strong and determined to fight it, We and the rest of our big clan are always there to support her, although we are limited to what we can do BUT God is limitless and I hold on to His miracle...

fact: She is like third mom to me next to her sisters who really helped me understand discipline and love. Please Join me in praying for her miracle and continued determination to fight cancer. She does not want any doctor to touch it nor take any medication except for an ointment and boiled guava leaves, I think I understand her, she thought that we can't afford any chemo session or any expensive medication.