Thursday, April 30, 2009


I'm sorry but your joke isn't funny...

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Lingering thoughts on my mind...

Got inspired by Rojo's blog and I would like to create my own version. Here you go.

There are times that suppressing your feeling for someone you love is not a futile thing to do. You just need to do it for your self. You're just saving some, that way when you need to grab something in the future when you needed it so badly, you'll have enough for yourself.

Can choosing who to love be equivalent in choosing who to be with? Can you possibly dictate your heart to beat for what your mind is telling it to beat for? Can you be satisfied if you follow what is right and not what you want? Is there a formula to equate what you want to become what is right?

Shit happens. You see, sometimes it rains in the middle of summer. Sometimes you get to feel bad without knowing why and later you'll be as happy as gay. There are some instances that we are not in control and we can't stop them from happening. Just be still everything will come into past and the rest will be a history. Make the most out of every scene in life, if shit happens let it pass thoroughly then just move forward and learn from it.

Annoying people do exist everywhere and you can't run from them.

It is helpful to shut your mouth if you don't have anything good to say. Words can either build or ruin someone. James in the bible talks about taming the tongue and it make sense why even the scriptures talks about the power of words. There will always be another way of telling things to people to have them realize what you are trying to tell them.

Pain is good. Embracing it will let you loose and see the good out of it. Cry your lungs out, pour it. There's nothing wrong in ceasing and feeling the pain that someone caused you. It's not about the person who cause the hurt, it's about the pain that you are feeling. Feel and cease that will not last forever.

What Hurts the Most - Danny Gokey

(Danny Gokey)

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

Monday, April 20, 2009

Breaking dawn

I'm done reading the last book of the Twilight saga entitled "Breaking dawn". Overall, it was not too bad, though, I get a little bored reading some of the super cheesy chapters. But I can still say you won't waste your time reading the book. I must also say that the chapter were Jacob Black is narrating satisfies my curiosity about his unconditional love to Bella without asking anything in return. The transition and the flow of story is not that spontaneous comparing to Eclipse (for me).I am expecting to see more action specially in the part were the Volturi finally came into the scene while a league of Vampire witnesses and werewolves headed by the Cullen's are waiting for the final fight. I guess I should not be expecting hard core fight from a love story book. But I can't help it, the only thing happen on that nerve wracking scene is Bella releasing her stupid shield protecting everyone from the very powerfull Alec and Jane the mighty guards of the Volturi and that's about it no fight scene whatsoever. This final book answers some of very important questions every reader of the sequel is asking about. Will Bella turn to become an Immortal like Edward? What will happen to Jacob and Bell? Is this aa happily ever after ending? I'm not going to spoil those thirst some of my friends who look at my page are not yet done or have not yet started reading this book, so there you go my personal say about this book. Thanks for reading! OOOoops before I forget I would like to Thank Essie and Mike for lending me the book I was having hard time getting a copy of it the past months. Guys I'll return the book in the same contidion as you have given me. Thanks mucho!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Untitled Entry

I really wanted to write something. However, I can't seem to find a way to connect all my gibberish ideas to finally come up to something worth reading. Something interesting. Something inspiring. But then again I am a bad writer which tells you promptly that this is another stupid entry :-D

No matter how vague or shallow my ideas are I am still writing and I appreciate you wasting your time reading my crapy entry :-D

Summer is almost over and I haven't got a single plan for some summer escapade yet awwwww! I am not counting our family reunion as summer escapade because it was dull. Don't get me wrong, I love reunions but this time I guess it's more of for-the-oldies kind of stuff. I spent the Lenten season long weekend at home with my family. I am glad friends came over. Had a good laugh with them which I really deserve after the frustration at work before the long weekend. Micro management sucks!

I love beaches. It gives a different feeling when I'm near the beach. So peaceful. The smell of the wind relaxes me. Walking on the sand barefoot while the heat of the sun touches my skin is really amazing. I feel so free. Made me appreciate how awesome our Creator is. What is more fun than having a message near the sea shore?- Heaven!

And while I look at the beauty of amazing sunset on the far horizon, I always have this feeling that everything is going to be alright. Nothing can possibly go wrong. It's like someone up there is speaking through nature, reminding me how precious His creations are. Indeed beach has been my comfort zone a haven on summer season. A perfect place to do anything you enjoy.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Poker Face

One of the hardest task for me is to not show emotion on certain instance in whatever situation I am. In one way or another it will definitely show on my face, that makes me a bad liar. I usually walk out in an argument just to prevent my self from saying things I will regret after the burst of anger. If I don't like what people say you can see it on my face. I don't want this anymore. I wanted to learn how to have a poker face. I want people to see nothing. Just an Emotionless face. Just nothingness.

Good thing i don't have to show poker face in blogging to hide emotion. I can be as emotional and radical as I want to because this is my page. A piece of me.

I hate it when an individual contribution at work are measured under perception only. I believe that numbers will count when defining how well you perform at work. I think considering just perception is Bias. I once hate Dell because everything can be measured in numbers and that always defines how well you perform. You will always see comprehensive reports on your performance evaluation rating not just how your boss look how you work but what are the results, the actual numbers from the process engineering who generate performance report. Now I have come to realize that I still love the soul and core value of dell. I hate it when leader thinks the process are working effectively because majority can suck it up and work with it. And when you fail to follow you are tagged as dork and will have mark on your forehead that you are none performer and they would have to look at all your work simply because you failed to follow the process without considering all other contribution you are doing daily. I guess I can somehow conclude that those are enough reason why Dell still belongs to top 50 Fortune 500 company regardless of financial issues they had, I just adore their strategic business team down to the smallest people who do their job, makes me proud that I have the opportunity to work with them. Why I am writing all these? because I am not happy right now (not gonna go into details) I don't want to see myself dragging into work just because I have to earn to pay my bills. Now this is a good time to show my poker face.

Poker Face - Lady GaGa

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Stuff this week

My schedule was pretty much swamped the past days. My manager signed me up to Ateno Language Training Workshop for "Effective English communication in a workplace" in accordance to preparation for our upcoming bi annual IELTS exams which I fairly got good mark last time. The reason why I bid my goodbye to our monetary language incentive this quarter, too bad! plus the conception that I am poor English user which, somehow I think is true :-D But hell people can understand me ok, duh!

This week has been really a mess. My schedule sucks! Going to office 3 hours before my scheduled work time is very inconvenient, counting the fact that it is rush hour. Just imagine the number of commuters trying to catch MRT and public buses to get home while this freshy guy will just be starting his day struggling to go through with this.

I somehow miss my life in the US whenever I am in that situation. Our training is nice though, I am learning something new, as what Teacher Chuchi have said, "why not say please read my entry" instead of saying, "please perusal the whole passage". She actually has a point, why not say things that majority of the expectator can understand easily. I hope my writing skill will improve also, as I go on to our one month scheduled training. You know, I like my speaking and listening teacher Ms. Anika a lot.She's a native from Russia, considering English is her secondary laguage she still mastered the fluency without any traces of her native language. What more to us who's English is a secondary form of communication in our country? I am optimistic that I will improve more as I finish the session

I am happy because I knew that I will be clearing out my credit card debt, yahooooo! This time I promise to myself that I am using it no more :-D (Goodluck!). I am looking forward to better manage my finances for my future. I really wanted to save some incase I may be unlucky enough to get laid off.

Summer heat is getting hoter and hoter these days, everyone is packing their bags to go for some summer escapades.Bringing on those colorfull oakley shades and quick silver board shorts to walk under the summer heat on the beach to show some sexyness this summer season. While Emerson Manila doesn't have summer outing, great! my first company that doesn't have summer outing. And for us Night Shifters on our own cube working mondays through fridays and working again and working so hard. Oh did I say working? yeah I think I mentioned working...